You know those moments where we have fallen out of rhythm? ... We haven't served well and we have been selfish. We Netflix binged, we work too much, we nap too long, we focused too much on our friends, we spent too much time alone, we skipped church, we made that one mistake that we said we would never make again ... we have lost our way.
I hear it all the time:
"I've just been really far from God lately."
So here are the steps to feeling better about yourself and where you stand with God:
1. Actually believe that God has, is, and always will be closer than your own breath.
That's all. Act out of that place.
This month for me has been a whirlwind. I have witnessed in myself a desire to do more and be enough. I have shamed myself for the time I spend doing meaningless things, my forgetfulness, I have questioned my purpose daily, and believed the lies in my heart saying "You are a joke. You know it and everyone else knows it."
It's a pretty big lie. It was sprinkled over my friendships, my marriage, my work, my writing, my quiet time. So what was my response? -- " I can do more! I can be more! I will make myself enough. I can make myself lovable ."
I started looking around me and seeing friends around me in the exact. same. place. The weight that shame and lies had pressed down on their shoulders. We all walk around hunched over, carrying the burden we were never meant to carry. We pass each other with our shackles and droopy faces and just nod to each other like we understand the struggle instead of saying "Hey! I see a big lie on your back, let me help you. What do you need, how can I help?... I love you."
We were never asked to earn love, only to receive it. Thinking you need to earn your way "back" only produces a culture of self shaming and avoidance- never obedience with the right intentions. Believe it or not, we can binge on doing the "right things" for the wrong reasons, too.
The truth is, we may wish that there were steps because it's what we understand.. but we only understand it because it's a way of the world. Accepting the grace that is extended to you is usually the hardest part, but not accepting it means we don't let ourselves exhale.
Separate the lies that hold you down, and let life be breathed into you.
Happy stories, sad stories, dramatic, sorrowful, and joyous stories- every story is a love story... and here are some of mine.