There are many reasons why we let go of things we love to do, it may be time for some to make a comeback. When you are working hard, planning for the future, taking care of others, it's easy to let the luxury activities go... but here's the thing- maybe they are not luxury activities. Maybe you are unique and have unique interests. Maybe you can plan better and take care of others better if you are taking the time to let passion breathe life into you.
What if you're a better friend when you are who you were created to be...
I've been examining my passions and reflecting on how they slipped through my daily rhythms. I'll admit, it has not been easy. I realized most of these passions took a leave of absence because of FEAR... which means I had to face the fear (or at lease acknowledge it) before enjoying the activity.
Working out & food
No one really knew at the time especially because - well, to be quite honest- the more I struggled the more compliments I got. And the more I worked out the more of a "dedicated athlete" I was. Only I knew my motivations and intentions and I got to the point where I had to face it. I had to remind myself that I was created to enjoy food and the movement of my body, not exploit it. It's been a LONG road. It's a road that requires a lot of honesty and confession- not just with other people but with myself too. It's a place of victory in my life now. Two days ago my husband was watching me do yoga and burst into tears... I knew why. It was just yoga, but for us, it was a dance of victory over something that bound me for so long- a dance of freedom. I get to enjoy what working out offers to my life- it doesn't run my life. If I like to work out and if I value my health, then I have to keep my intentions in pure. I frequently confess what's happening in my thought-life and intentionally keep the thoughts from becoming actions.
There is freedom from this- it's being offered right now.
“If God is bread, then God meets my needs, to the category of delectation. If God is chocolate tea bread, God is not only panary provision—God is also about delight. It is one of the beauties of this metaphor that bread, like the One who made the hands that made the bread, contains both: enjoyment and necessity, sustenance and pleasure."
-Wearing God by Lauren Winner
Really it's writing in general. The blog was one answer to that (*confession* after I bought the domain, I stared at a blank website for 6 months). But I have this secret passion within writing- a passion for fiction and poetry. It just makes me happy. There ARE NO RULES! It's just fun. It's like opening a recipe book and all the pages are blank... doesn't matter what you throw in, it's perfect.
Obviously if you're trying to get something published that's probably not going to work but for me- every hour is amateur hour! So I wrote a poem about how I have been afraid to write poems.
Singing... and the arts
Most people who know me now don't even know I like to sing. Mostly because I have learned that when you tell people you LIKE to do something, they expect you to be GOOD at it...
Do not let your fear of not being good at something keep you from doing it- if it's something you love, go for it! Has it been a while? Do you need some practice? Will people laugh? Okay then...
I don't care if it's dance, spanish class, comedy, painting... heck, maybe it's a little weird. Well guess what, you're probably a little weird too.
So I got out an old choir song that I used to love, and I tried. and guess what, I wasn't very good. So I tried again... and guess what... I had FUN. I laughed at my bad German and my inability to hit the notes, but this little flame burned so bright in me that I didn't care. I couldn't care. That's what joy does!
That's what this is about- letting fun things stay fun. It's about not letting the world taint the beautiful things we are meant to enjoy. It's about not being afraid to explore the boundaries of your creativity and comfort and being okay when it's not perfect.
When you are enjoying the life you've been given, you are giving others permission to do the same.
Happy stories, sad stories, dramatic, sorrowful, and joyous stories- every story is a love story... and here are some of mine.